Yeah, that's pretty much what my life consist of right now :) But let me say right away...I'm not complaining! I wouldn't change a thing! I feel like all I am doing right now is making bottles, washing bottles, and feeding Carson bottles. Bottles, bottles, bottles! Whew...This boy is growing! After we do the whole bottle routine Carson is "punch drunk" (that's what James likes to call it) and ready for a little nap. This usually seems to occur on my chest, which again, I'm totally not complaining! I absolutely LOVE it when he sleeps on me, especially because it doesn't allow me to move, or do anything else. I can sit on the couch for hours thinking about all of the things I need to do but as long as he'll sleep there I'm stuck, and I like it! Then after an hour or so my little man will wake up ready to take on the world, and another bottle of course! haha
I have to admit...being a stay at home Mommy of a newborn is no joke. During the day I really don't have much time for ME. I don't get to decide when I wake up, when (or if) I get a nap, when I eat lunch, or when I take a shower. Carson just makes all of this decisions for me...what a nice guy :) Today for example I didn't get to take a shower until about 3:30, by that point it almost seemed like a waste of time, before I know it it's time for bed anyways... I have to give my little guy some credit though....Today he laid in his crib and stared at his Big Red mobile the whole time I showered and fixed my hair. I of course was running back and fourth to crank the think up but he was perfectly content :) Thanks Carson!
We are ALL counting the days until our big visit to Kentucky! We just can't wait to introduce Carson to all of our favorite people :) I keep telling him about all of the amazing people he's going to meet! I think I am most excited to see him back in Granny & Pops, and Mimi & Poppy's arms :) I just love the look on their faces as they hold our little miracle...true love. I am also incredibly excited for Carson to meet his uncle Andy and uncle Josh! He has two amazing guys to look up to that's for sure.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
One Month Recap...
At one month....
I love going for walks...
Playing with my toys...
I love sucking on my paci
(Hopefully next month I'll get the whole thumb thing figured out, I'm so close!)
I had my first experience with the "booger getter" and I'm not sure how I feel about it...
I love my Daddy's work because someday (hopefully soon) their going to move us closer to home!
I'm trying to talk to Mommy and Daddy through grunts and cries...
I'm outgrowing my newborn clothes and diapers!
My favorite toy is my Big Red mobile!I met my first toad thanks to Daddy!
My legs are still long and skinny!
I'm looking forward to what month 2 has in store...
Playing with my toys...
I love sucking on my paci
(Hopefully next month I'll get the whole thumb thing figured out, I'm so close!)
I had my first experience with the "booger getter" and I'm not sure how I feel about it...
I love my Daddy's work because someday (hopefully soon) their going to move us closer to home!
I'm trying to talk to Mommy and Daddy through grunts and cries...
I'm outgrowing my newborn clothes and diapers!
My favorite toy is my Big Red mobile!I met my first toad thanks to Daddy!
My legs are still long and skinny!
I'm looking forward to what month 2 has in store...
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Growth Spurt!
Eleven days ago at Carson's two week check-up he weighed in at 7 lbs 14 oz, the doctor wasn't concerned about his weight but did say he should be gaining roughly an ounce a day. So, she wanted us to come back in for a weight check 10 days later. Well, we went today, the 11th day, to make sure he was gaining weight like he was supposed to. According to the ounce a day goal his target weight for today was 8 lbs 9 oz..... Well, our little man, being the over achiever that he is, blew that number out of the water! Today he weighed a whopping 9 lbs 2.5oz! Woo Hoo! Way to go Carson! On a side note: You've got to be jealous....How many people celebrate when you gain weight? haha The doctor was super proud of his weight gain and told us to keep doing what we were doing, and that he looked great (Come on doc, tell us something we don't already know....) We knew the kiddo was getting bigger, he's been eating like a horse! It's amazing how fast he growing and changing!
Today was the first time I had to take Carson to the doctor by myself, and of course he was a little angel! He must really love his mommy! He slept through his whole exam. The little guy was all spread out on the table catching some serious Z's, I feel sure he doesn't even know the doctor was there! haha
Words can describe how much we love this little guy... All 9 lbs 2.5 oz of him! We feel so blessed to have such a healthy baby boy :)
Today was the first time I had to take Carson to the doctor by myself, and of course he was a little angel! He must really love his mommy! He slept through his whole exam. The little guy was all spread out on the table catching some serious Z's, I feel sure he doesn't even know the doctor was there! haha
Words can describe how much we love this little guy... All 9 lbs 2.5 oz of him! We feel so blessed to have such a healthy baby boy :)
This is totally unrelated to this post but I wanted to share:
Lately when Carson really gets to crying he's been dangerously close to having tears! It's the saddest thing ever when we pick him up and his little eyes are all glassy. It's just going to melt our hearts the first time we see those big crocodile tears running down his face!
Monday, June 21, 2010
Father's Day!
Yesterday Carson and I did what we could to make sure James had a wonderful first Father's Day! Carson and I got up and made Daddy his favorite breakfast, French toast! After breakfast the boys spent a little quality time snuggling while Mommy got some uninterrupted time to shower, and get ready for the day! Woo Hoo :) We made a quick trip to Wal-Mart, picked up some lunch, and then took Chloe and Carson to the park! Chloe got to go swimming in the lake, Carson got in a good nap while he enjoyed the fresh air, and Mommy and Daddy got a little exercise! After our walk we came home and watched a little golf, actually...not a little golf...a lot of golf. I'm pretty sure we laid around and watched golf from about 1:00 until about 8:00. Yes, it was a wonderful Father's Day! Nice and relaxing, just the way we like it... I mean, just the way Daddy likes it!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Where does the time go?
Carson is three weeks old today! I just can't believe that three weeks and one day ago I was battling contractions feeling like he'd NEVER get here. Well, he's here alright and he is wonderful! I remember being worried that I'd be bored staying at home all day everyday....well, who has time to be bored when your caring for a newborn?? Not me that's for sure. Yesterday during a Skype session (best invention ever) my friend Stacey asked, "So, what do you do all day?" Um... I didn't really know how to answer that question. Well, I get up feed Carson, change Carson, play with Carson, change Carson, eat breakfast, feed Carson, take a speedy quick shower while he's catching a few Z's, change Carson, play with Carson, feed Carson.... Ok, I think you get the picture. And, before you know it it's 5:30 and James is getting home. Whew, it's amazing how fast my days are going by!
Let me say this...I'm NOT complaining! I love our "new life" as parents! It's amazing how different things are around here. Last night for example, after we each took turns eating dinner while the other held Carson...We had a fussy baby on our hands. We decided to give Carson a quick bath considering he'd managed to spit up on himself and pee on himself (twice) in about an hour. After his bath we packed everyone up and headed out for a walk around the neighborhood. Carson was fussy for the first few minutes and Chloe was yanking James all over the place. We were both getting frustrated and then all of a sudden all was quiet. Carson was quiet and happy. James and I just walked in silence for like 5 minutes without saying a word to each other. Then I broke the silence and said, "This quiet is kind of nice right?" haha We both agreed!
Carson is still being a little angel at night! He eats before bed and wakes up sometime around 1-2 to eat again and then he sleeps until 5-6, not too shabby! Carson is definitely growing! He's now eating about 4 oz at each feeding (FYI: we've began introducing formula with my milk...I spent about a week and a half with an clogged duct which in turn caused me to get really sore, I decided to stop nursing and just pump to let things heal up... in the process I think my milk supply got low... So, we started introducing formula to make sure I had enough milk left for the transition process.)! In the last couple of days we can really tell he's growing! We go back to the doctor on Tuesday for a quick little check-up. At our two week check he was 7 lbs 14 oz. and they said he should have been a little bigger (gaining an ounce a day) so they had us feed him a little more often and wanted us to come back in 10 days to see if he's on track. We are anxious to see what he weighs now :)
Last night I decided to take Carson outside with his comforter and take a few "naked baby" pictures! He had on his diaper, I'm not that brave. So, I got some really cute shots of our little man. What you can't see in these pictures is the big spot of pee on the comforter... The little guy managed to pee out the back of his diaper as soon as I laid him down. Go figure. You also can't see the "cottage cheese spit up" that kept oozing out the side of his mouth. All you can see is the cuteness...Enjoy :)
Let me say this...I'm NOT complaining! I love our "new life" as parents! It's amazing how different things are around here. Last night for example, after we each took turns eating dinner while the other held Carson...We had a fussy baby on our hands. We decided to give Carson a quick bath considering he'd managed to spit up on himself and pee on himself (twice) in about an hour. After his bath we packed everyone up and headed out for a walk around the neighborhood. Carson was fussy for the first few minutes and Chloe was yanking James all over the place. We were both getting frustrated and then all of a sudden all was quiet. Carson was quiet and happy. James and I just walked in silence for like 5 minutes without saying a word to each other. Then I broke the silence and said, "This quiet is kind of nice right?" haha We both agreed!
Carson is still being a little angel at night! He eats before bed and wakes up sometime around 1-2 to eat again and then he sleeps until 5-6, not too shabby! Carson is definitely growing! He's now eating about 4 oz at each feeding (FYI: we've began introducing formula with my milk...I spent about a week and a half with an clogged duct which in turn caused me to get really sore, I decided to stop nursing and just pump to let things heal up... in the process I think my milk supply got low... So, we started introducing formula to make sure I had enough milk left for the transition process.)! In the last couple of days we can really tell he's growing! We go back to the doctor on Tuesday for a quick little check-up. At our two week check he was 7 lbs 14 oz. and they said he should have been a little bigger (gaining an ounce a day) so they had us feed him a little more often and wanted us to come back in 10 days to see if he's on track. We are anxious to see what he weighs now :)
Last night I decided to take Carson outside with his comforter and take a few "naked baby" pictures! He had on his diaper, I'm not that brave. So, I got some really cute shots of our little man. What you can't see in these pictures is the big spot of pee on the comforter... The little guy managed to pee out the back of his diaper as soon as I laid him down. Go figure. You also can't see the "cottage cheese spit up" that kept oozing out the side of his mouth. All you can see is the cuteness...Enjoy :)
Monday, June 14, 2010
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Bath time at the Harper house!
Tuesday night Carson got his first bath, and I think he actually liked it! When I set him down into the warm water he seemed so relaxed! Toward the end of the bath he started to get a little cold and we saw this face...
After we got his hair all washed (which is by far his favorite part of bath time) we got him all bundled up in his little doggie hooded towel he got from Mimi and warmed him right up....
Once he was all warm we got out his matching robe and bundled him up in something dry....
There is nothing better than a clean smelling baby boy :)
Once he was all warm we got out his matching robe and bundled him up in something dry....
There is nothing better than a clean smelling baby boy :)
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
The Stinky Stump
What is the "Stinky Stump" you ask? It's Carson's umbilical cord stump, and yes it was stinky. They told us at the hospital that it should fall off on it's own between one-two weeks after birth. James, being the "picker" that he is was just DYING to pick at it until it fell off. I have to admit I can't blame him though...in the last couple of days it has become quite stinky. We figured this meant it was about to come off, and I am happy to report that it came off this morning during a diaper change! Woo Hoo! See ya later Stinky Stump you will NOT be missed :)
With the stump in the trash can we now have the go ahead to give Carson his first REAL bath in his little "Whale of a Tub" that's been hanging in our laundry room since January! I can't wait :) James' parents will be here tomorrow morning around 11ish to meet their first grand baby and I'm so glad he'll get to be all squeaky clean for their big meeting! We plan on giving him a bath tonight so I will let you know how that goes...
With the stump in the trash can we now have the go ahead to give Carson his first REAL bath in his little "Whale of a Tub" that's been hanging in our laundry room since January! I can't wait :) James' parents will be here tomorrow morning around 11ish to meet their first grand baby and I'm so glad he'll get to be all squeaky clean for their big meeting! We plan on giving him a bath tonight so I will let you know how that goes...
Thankful...
It may sound cheesy but I'm writing this post to give a special thanks to James for all of his support throughout this entire process. There is NO way I could have gone through the pregnancy, the labor and delivery, or the breastfeeding without him. He was, as expected, super calm and cool during the delivery process which allowed me to keep my cool. Honestly, I was quite impressed with how well I "kept it together" during the whole thing. All credit goes to James though.... He's also been INCREDIBLY supportive of the breastfeeding thing :) It hasn't been near as bad as I feared it would be. Although, in the last couple days I have had a small hiccup in the whole process. I think I've got a clogged milk duct on one side so I'm really sore. For those of you that have never done the breastfeeding thing it kind of feels like there are a couple of golf balls floating around in there... The doctor, along with Cheryl (the pregnancy, mommy, breastfeeding guru) said to keep feeding and pumping through the pain and it will come unplugged... So, that's what I'm trying to do. I don't think I could put myself through this for anyone but Carson. The little guy makes the best face right after a feeding....What you can't see in this picture is the milk running down his chin....This picture captures the little face I get to see during, and after each feeding. It makes it all worth it!
Again, I know this is a bit cheesy but it's so true.... James you are the rock that holds our little family together and I can only hope that you teach Carson to be just like you! I love my boys :)
Again, I know this is a bit cheesy but it's so true.... James you are the rock that holds our little family together and I can only hope that you teach Carson to be just like you! I love my boys :)
Yes, we know you're the boss....
Carson is the boss. He gets what he wants, when he wants it. haha It's amazing how quickly your life changes the moment a baby is born. Everything now revolves around him. My thoughts, my plans, when I take a shower, when I eat lunch, even James hasn't been able to sleep as hard as he used to...
We were incredibly lucky to have my parents in town for a whole week to help us adjust to our new life as parents. And of course Carson enjoyed their stay because it meant he pretty much got held for an entire week! haha While it was VERY helpful to have Granny and Pops here that first week I have to give all of the credit to Carson for making our first week as parents SO successful. He's an angel. Since our second feeding he's been latching on just perfectly, with no pain for Mommy... Thank you Carson, you deserve the "angel status" for accomplishing this task alone. He's an eating, peeing, pooping machine! Because my delivery was so smooth and I was recovering quickly (Thanks to the fact that I only had one stitch! Woo Hoo!) we were able to go home Friday afternoon from the hospital. And, because we left early the pediatrician wanted us to come into their office the next morning so they could check Carson for jaundice. The little man passed the test but we were still asked to come back in a couple more days to make sure it didn't develop over the holiday weekend. So, we went back to the doctor Tuesday (June 1st) for another little check-up. We were happy to hear that he officially did NOT have jaundice and that he was almost back to his birth weight already, 7lbs. 11oz! Yay! This was comforting for me to know because it meant that I was giving him all of the nutrition he needed to grow big and strong :)
The doctors gave us strict instructions to wake up Carson every 2-3 hours for feedings until he was back up to his birth weight. Whew...this was quite the task. It's SO hard to wake a sleeping baby!!! By Thursday we figured he'd probably gained the 2 oz. he was lacking so we decided to let the boy sleep. We were pleased to see that he could make it 4 hours between feedings. It already feels like our little guy is sleeping through the night. I feed him right before bed, and wake up once around 2-3am to feed and then he can make it until around 6ish when we are ready to get up for the day. It's nice that he is sleeping in 3-4 hour chunks, but it's even nicer that after that middle of the night feeding he goes right back to sleep. I'm telling you, the boy is an angel.
We were incredibly lucky to have my parents in town for a whole week to help us adjust to our new life as parents. And of course Carson enjoyed their stay because it meant he pretty much got held for an entire week! haha While it was VERY helpful to have Granny and Pops here that first week I have to give all of the credit to Carson for making our first week as parents SO successful. He's an angel. Since our second feeding he's been latching on just perfectly, with no pain for Mommy... Thank you Carson, you deserve the "angel status" for accomplishing this task alone. He's an eating, peeing, pooping machine! Because my delivery was so smooth and I was recovering quickly (Thanks to the fact that I only had one stitch! Woo Hoo!) we were able to go home Friday afternoon from the hospital. And, because we left early the pediatrician wanted us to come into their office the next morning so they could check Carson for jaundice. The little man passed the test but we were still asked to come back in a couple more days to make sure it didn't develop over the holiday weekend. So, we went back to the doctor Tuesday (June 1st) for another little check-up. We were happy to hear that he officially did NOT have jaundice and that he was almost back to his birth weight already, 7lbs. 11oz! Yay! This was comforting for me to know because it meant that I was giving him all of the nutrition he needed to grow big and strong :)
The doctors gave us strict instructions to wake up Carson every 2-3 hours for feedings until he was back up to his birth weight. Whew...this was quite the task. It's SO hard to wake a sleeping baby!!! By Thursday we figured he'd probably gained the 2 oz. he was lacking so we decided to let the boy sleep. We were pleased to see that he could make it 4 hours between feedings. It already feels like our little guy is sleeping through the night. I feed him right before bed, and wake up once around 2-3am to feed and then he can make it until around 6ish when we are ready to get up for the day. It's nice that he is sleeping in 3-4 hour chunks, but it's even nicer that after that middle of the night feeding he goes right back to sleep. I'm telling you, the boy is an angel.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Our Big Day
I apologize for the delay in making this post, but we've kind of had our hands full... we did just have a baby here! haha So much has happened in the last week and a half I don't even know where to start! I'll start at the beginning... Having my first contractions....
It's Tuesday night, May 25th, and James and I are growing impatient... We're dying to meet Carson. We go to dinner at Chipolte (a little Mexican grill similar to Qudoba, Moe's, etc.) I am not a big spicy foods person but I did go out on a limb and try the medium salsa.... it was yummy and it had a little bit of a kick. I am saying this "little kick" is what started my labor!!! Later that night at about 8:30pm the contractions started. It took us both a while to be convinced that "contractions" were what I was actually experiencing. Even later into the night, about 1 o'clock or so we made the call to my doctor, "Um, I think I'm in labor...?" (Let me just say that was a weird call to make), took showers, and got all packed up for the hospital. My contractions were consistently 5 minutes apart...Was this really it? We got to the hospital and the nurses said I was only 1.5cm dilated so they sent us out for a late night stroll around the hospital. They told us not to come back for an hour....That was one LONG hour. We returned back to our room hoping to hear that I was further dilated, was I you ask....Nope. So with that the nurse sent us back home with instructions to come back when the contractions got either closer together, or more painful. Great. By the time we actually got home it was about 6:00am (on Wednesday) and we were completely exhausted from a night of no sleep.
We come home and go straight to bed, and let me tell you it's nearly impossible to sleep when you have a contraction every 5 min. James heads off to work around lunch time and leaves me home to "contract" all day. I'm pretty sure I laid in bed ALL day waking up every 5-7 minutes to write down when each contraction occurred. After a day FULL of contractions I was convinced that they were getting stronger, and more painful. I called my doctor around 7:00pm Wednesday night to see what we should do. She told us to take a big walk around the neighborhood and if the contractions continued to pack up and come to the hospital again. Our walk was somewhat painful....every 5-7 minutes I was doubled over in pain. The contractions weren't stopping. We got to the hospital around 10 o'clock hoping, and praying this was REALLY "it". Once we got all checked in, again, the nurse came in and said I was 2 cm dilated...Woo hoo, we're making progress! The nurses wanted to make sure I was going to continue to progress so I had to lay there for about an hour, when she came back we were SO relieved to hear that I was 3 cm dilated, and that we weren't going to be sent home. Ohmygosh, we really ARE going to have a baby.
At 3 cm they offered me a dose of a pain medicine they referred to as a "cocktail" Yum, I gladly accepted. It was wonderful, and I was feeling good. After another hour or so they came back to check me again and I was 4 cm dilated, and we were told the epidural was on its way! Yay! The epidural didn't hurt, and it was the strangest feeling EVER when it started to kick it. My legs were literally numb, and felt non existent...awesome. They told us to get some rest because we were going to be having a baby soon! We got to sleep for a couple hours which was nice! When I was 5 cm dilated they were concerned that the epidural was making the contractions weaker so they gave me a very small dose of Petocin to insure they kept coming strong. A couple hours later the nurse came in, did her little check, and told us we were 10 cm dilated, and 100% effaced....Oh my gosh! We were in shock....The time was finally here!!
After a couple hours of "laboring down" (allowing Carson to move himself down even further, which means less work for Mommy) I was glad to hear that our little man did a great job and did some of the work for me! He loves his mommy already :) About an hour and a half of pushing later they were laying a blue baby on my belly. Blue? Yes, blue. I think the first thing I said after seeing him was, "Ohmygosh, is he supposed to be blue?" (I have a hilarious picture of myself making the most scared face ever as they laid him on my belly...I will never forget that moment!) The nurses reassured me that this was completely normal and that it would change quickly. We spent the next 20 minutes or so with him on my chest getting a little "skin to skin" time with Mom. AMAZING! He was now a pink baby, whew. James and I were beaming. He was perfect, and he was OURS. What a surreal feeling :)
After 9 months of waiting we finally were holding our sweet baby boy! He was born on May 27,2010 at 9:43am. He weighed 7 lbs, 13 oz and was 21.5 inches long. We are so in love.
It's Tuesday night, May 25th, and James and I are growing impatient... We're dying to meet Carson. We go to dinner at Chipolte (a little Mexican grill similar to Qudoba, Moe's, etc.) I am not a big spicy foods person but I did go out on a limb and try the medium salsa.... it was yummy and it had a little bit of a kick. I am saying this "little kick" is what started my labor!!! Later that night at about 8:30pm the contractions started. It took us both a while to be convinced that "contractions" were what I was actually experiencing. Even later into the night, about 1 o'clock or so we made the call to my doctor, "Um, I think I'm in labor...?" (Let me just say that was a weird call to make), took showers, and got all packed up for the hospital. My contractions were consistently 5 minutes apart...Was this really it? We got to the hospital and the nurses said I was only 1.5cm dilated so they sent us out for a late night stroll around the hospital. They told us not to come back for an hour....That was one LONG hour. We returned back to our room hoping to hear that I was further dilated, was I you ask....Nope. So with that the nurse sent us back home with instructions to come back when the contractions got either closer together, or more painful. Great. By the time we actually got home it was about 6:00am (on Wednesday) and we were completely exhausted from a night of no sleep.
We come home and go straight to bed, and let me tell you it's nearly impossible to sleep when you have a contraction every 5 min. James heads off to work around lunch time and leaves me home to "contract" all day. I'm pretty sure I laid in bed ALL day waking up every 5-7 minutes to write down when each contraction occurred. After a day FULL of contractions I was convinced that they were getting stronger, and more painful. I called my doctor around 7:00pm Wednesday night to see what we should do. She told us to take a big walk around the neighborhood and if the contractions continued to pack up and come to the hospital again. Our walk was somewhat painful....every 5-7 minutes I was doubled over in pain. The contractions weren't stopping. We got to the hospital around 10 o'clock hoping, and praying this was REALLY "it". Once we got all checked in, again, the nurse came in and said I was 2 cm dilated...Woo hoo, we're making progress! The nurses wanted to make sure I was going to continue to progress so I had to lay there for about an hour, when she came back we were SO relieved to hear that I was 3 cm dilated, and that we weren't going to be sent home. Ohmygosh, we really ARE going to have a baby.
At 3 cm they offered me a dose of a pain medicine they referred to as a "cocktail" Yum, I gladly accepted. It was wonderful, and I was feeling good. After another hour or so they came back to check me again and I was 4 cm dilated, and we were told the epidural was on its way! Yay! The epidural didn't hurt, and it was the strangest feeling EVER when it started to kick it. My legs were literally numb, and felt non existent...awesome. They told us to get some rest because we were going to be having a baby soon! We got to sleep for a couple hours which was nice! When I was 5 cm dilated they were concerned that the epidural was making the contractions weaker so they gave me a very small dose of Petocin to insure they kept coming strong. A couple hours later the nurse came in, did her little check, and told us we were 10 cm dilated, and 100% effaced....Oh my gosh! We were in shock....The time was finally here!!
After a couple hours of "laboring down" (allowing Carson to move himself down even further, which means less work for Mommy) I was glad to hear that our little man did a great job and did some of the work for me! He loves his mommy already :) About an hour and a half of pushing later they were laying a blue baby on my belly. Blue? Yes, blue. I think the first thing I said after seeing him was, "Ohmygosh, is he supposed to be blue?" (I have a hilarious picture of myself making the most scared face ever as they laid him on my belly...I will never forget that moment!) The nurses reassured me that this was completely normal and that it would change quickly. We spent the next 20 minutes or so with him on my chest getting a little "skin to skin" time with Mom. AMAZING! He was now a pink baby, whew. James and I were beaming. He was perfect, and he was OURS. What a surreal feeling :)
After 9 months of waiting we finally were holding our sweet baby boy! He was born on May 27,2010 at 9:43am. He weighed 7 lbs, 13 oz and was 21.5 inches long. We are so in love.
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